on rebelling

i'm finding it daunting to look at a bare screen for fifteen minutes when i don't feel i've been thinking about or doing anything that i want to share on my blog. sorry for the delay in posts. i find it annoying when someone i read regularly takes a hiatus and leaves me with nothing new to see! not that i blame the author; i don't.

anyway, after a month of the project, i think i may have reached a point where i rebel against what i should be doing and gorge on what i should definitely NOT be doing. for instance:

tuesday night erin and i went out to see a movie. dinner consisted of a medium popcorn, medium diet pepsi, whoppers, twizzlers, and peanut m&m's. ahem.

wednesday morning we had pancakes for breakfast (not too bad for the environment, but sugar on top of white flour wreaks havoc on my body), went out to play, came home and ordered pizza. then we had more m&m's at the beginning of the fireworks (which we watched both on tv and out our front window since the neighbors were setting off quite a display themselves).

yesterday i was mostly back on track. i picked up the csa share and made a good, local dinner for the fam. today i chose not to eff with my diet and only ate what i brought to work with me.

on the 90% list, pat linked to linked to her "anyway" theory (and also to sharon's article about pat's "anyway" theory), and the idea that choosing "the right thing" to do as though i were choosing between stealing and paying is helping me through today. it's putting my rebel back to sleep... for now. knowing me, though, it'll wake back up in a week or two (maybe less), and i'll see what i can find then to serve as a lullaby.